diary entries

01/05/26 12:32 at the local library. as i'm writing this, i'm blasting a youtube mix of the maria's all i really want is you live version through my dark chocolate overear beats headphones. currently rocking a black cropped, lettuce trim short sleeve tee, my wide pleated slacks from H&M that has lasted me through three jobs (5 years). debating on getting onto birth control. i grabbed a mini chartcuterie snack, raspberry melon unwell (electrolytes), lunchables pretzel sticks w/ PB + choco chips. watched first five minutes of daria's first episode. daniel caesar released a tiny desk concert. rewatched pov by ariana grande (vevo live session). nicole rafiee elaborated on her experience with veganism and the community online. opened my eyes up to her approach to doing things for herself and the online culture of dramaticizing a small moment of time experienced online. this can go hand in hand with how our communities tend to jump to conclusions really fast and the levels of discernment + fact checking everyone has. i strongly dislike how there are endless loops of misinformation spreading online, and i'm worried about the future of humanity. it's showing through face-to-face sales, how people interact within their personal and professional relationships, and has an interesting pocket in adulthood. music-wise i have hit a mini plateau, nothing's really sticking out to this new start of the year so far, it may be time i go in and research more about the artists i love and see if there are any new artists worth seeking out for. the best music that come into my top rotations tend to come unprovoked and as a smart shuffle suggestion from my spotify playlist. i've been playing my spotify blend playlists to try and get inspo but i realized that that doesn't cater to my specific music taste profile. i'm planning on picking up spanish and vietnamese and i was able to figure out how to properly embed a link into this website! i created this february '25 and barely added anything up until now. i hope to showcase how i see the world and what i come across in the best way possible. there are things to learn along the way and i cannot wait for what's to come this year. 2025 has been amazing to me, i have become part of such an amazing community of friends, i fell in love, and i have finally gotten out of the self-depricating mindset. i used to never believe that i could obtain such life-enriching elements in this life right now. it was never in the forefront of my mind, and i used to have no one that decided to choose me throughout my time here on this earth. i finally wanted to invite my close friends out for my birthday, when i never celebrate my birthday. i'm considered in still being a part of my close friends' lives and now more than ever people still want to spend time with me. now to find a balance in everything! my environment is changing pretty intensely these next few months. i wonder how i'll grow through this and continue to live in this life.